FRYD

On philosophical level I believe in predetermination since literally everything is one chain reaction that could hypothetically be calculated, but I think it’s completely random and not constructed by any known higher force.

That said I don’t get too worked up over jerks and assholes because they’re all deeply miserable and insecure. The way people act reflects what they expect of the world around them. Hostile people live in hostile worlds and the same for judgmental and hateful people.

Whenever a non-stranger asks how I’m doing my go to reply is “Eh. I’m about as miserable as I usually am.” other than that, I have a bad habit of ending sentences with “eh?” or “ya know?” when speaking

I have something like your problem. I try to be really patient and caring, but it’s gotten to the point where I have a reputation among my friends and family for it. Now I have more people to support than I can handle emotionally. My battery isn’t dead, but now it’s like blowing a breaker if the draw on any given day is too much.