Hey,

Many the things you’re feeling, I felt too when I was your age. Off course things might be very different, depending on the country you live in and the culture there, but still I think there are things that apply to people everywhere.

First off I would try to dismiss the idea that life can be planned or figured out, or that you should know what to do with it. Of course its nice to have goals and dreams but the older I get, i realize that all the older people I thought had it figured out are just making it up as they go too. Looking at former classmates now, I was always jealous of the ones that knew exactly what they wanted to be whereas I didn’t really know and still don’t. But many of them pursued those dreams only to find themselves somewhere completely different, so don’t worry about that.

Getting a job, even a bad one is not necessarily as bad as you might think. The upside being that they often attract a lot of other people your age who are going through the same thing. So even if the work might kinda suck, you might have more fun than you think and meet a lot of people. And even a little financial independence can feel very good.

I would also very much encourage you to find hobbies you like. There are many things that you can do on a small budget, and since you’re posting here you have access to the internet and a wealth of knowledge that comes with that. Personally I enjoy photography, and you definitely don’t need fancy gear to do that. I also enjoy sewing and woodworking. In general anything creative where you can see the result of your effort can be really satisfying. Don’t make it about being the best or making it your career. Do it for yourself. Often we feel pressure to accomplish things by society or our parents etc. but don’t underestimate the pressure and expectations you might put on yourself without knowing.

Having a hobby and achieving something there can give you a lot of pride and satisfaction that will make you worry less about all those other things. Its also a great way to meet other people too.

Another thing I wouldn’t underestimate is exercise. Try not to focus about looks or worry about your body but the tiredness after exercise is also a great way to feel accomplishment and to see a progress when you might feel like you’re standing still elsewhere. Also a healthy body will give you more energy to tackle other things.

I know a lot of this advice is a bit generic and easier said than done, but in general Id just advise you to give things a chance and try as many things as possible without worrying about what comes next. Its a bit like hiking lokking at the mountain on the horizon us very daunting, but just walking is not that hard and no matter which road you take after a while you will look back and see the place you started as far away as that mountain.

The main thing I’ve experienced in life so far is that I would never have predicted where I would end up next and that things change all the time. As much as you think you know yourself, what you can and cant do or whats realistic for you to achieve, you are probably wrong and will be surprised 10 years from now.

I hope that helps and I wish you all the best!

I have an LG C3 that I never connected to Wifi or plugged an ethernet cable into. I only use it with my nvidia shield running lineage OS, am I still affected by this / anything I should do?

+1 for Qobuz.

I have my own media server where i host everything that I buy digitally in the qobuz store to support artists and I use the streaming part to discover new things , or at parties etc. Its not the cheapest, but that’s kinda contradictory to supporting artists anyway. Its a good combination since a subscription gives you a bit of a discount on digital purchases as well.

To each his own I guess, but seeing the main character experiencing complex emotions and forming a connection to them as a viewer is not “nothing happening” to me…

I hate how its now a thing that shows can get criticized as “to slow” just because people fucked up their attention span. I was not bored for a single second of that show. Meanwhile Marvel movies might have shit happening every second but god have I been bored during those stake less, CGI fight scenes…

I think animal welfare is the bigger factor for most people avoiding leather, and while artificial leather is just plastic and certainly not great environmentally, traditional leather production is also very very much polluting nature with chemicals (Chromium tanning etc. ) plus it still supports the whole factory farming system which is terrible in its own right. I’m hoping fungus based leather or some lab grown variant will bring a real alternative someday.

Just looked up Onlyoffice and the first banner on their site now reads: Now driven by AI-Powered virtual assistants and smart agents… God damnit…